May 10 - Helloooooo I am now moved into CMH this term which I think will be fun cause itll be the more classic university res experience plus its in the summer so itll be warmer too.
May 13 - WAHHHHHHHHHH i have to apply to coops and theres a dilemma because I probably can get a return offer, but they do the posting cycle 1a so I have to either take it right away or hope I find another job later. Its really demotivating to see all the jobs that just pay less than that job and are worse overall because I could be getting something better which makes me wanna take the return offer. I think if I dont end up with something better by then, I'll just end up taking it and try again next term after cause its the safe bet to make. Trying my best to apply externally too of course but haven't heard anything good back from anywhere yet which stinks. Idk if I can land a good US job but I'm trying :P
Jun 2 - Me and friend helped paint EMD (the statue in front of DWE) last night which was quite tiring but its type 2 fun I think? Whichever one is the one that is fun after the fact and is pain while doing it lol. I have an interview with Toyota today which I'm reasonably confident for, and hopefully if all goes well then I can get a job out of it. Based off the posting atleast it seems like it could be a quite interesting position, plus its a decent spot to network in afaik which is good too despite me not really enjoying networking lol.
Note that I more often update the secreter blog page if you care enough **also i took return offer to ford :/
June 22 - I find it interesting how you end up missing the momentum/action of the day and period after you left somewhere. Coming to Waterloo and now being here for awhile and landing a good coop, I feel like I've lost that momentum that I had before. I can try to keep going ever further but theres only so far to go which kinda sucks and eventually I'll probably fall into a routine life like most people before.
June 25 - holy hell i just nuked my discrete math midterm we're so back
June 26 - I was talking with my roommate about midterms and how i havent studied and he said that I probably had weighed the risks. I find it quite funny that he said that because I definitly hadn't consciously done anything like that, but maybe I did so subconsciously or smth. I mean we try to make neural networks to predict whats going to happen in the future but we ourselves are just really good neural networks that have been trained a lot so maybe I should trust instinct a little more. My bad TENG/shaky shaky thing didn't really work at all, so now I'm trying a last version that uses conductive filament 3d printing, if that doesn't work I probably give up though. I feel like I have a very large burning passion right now to do/make something that benefits society at large but there isn't really a good outlet to put it into.
June 29 - Guys guys guys toronto pride was really fun and its also another lurking stress off my back, along with no more mideterms! I got a 42 on the only one ive gotten back so far (ECE124) but surely it'll be fine righttt. Also this website has officially actually been a net positive so thats nice.
Jul 20 - I've gotten like 3 different very acute statements made regarding my current situation and its very reassuring. When I say acute I mean statements made out of determination and confidence that seem incredibly out place from where they're coming from. If I was religious I'd say they were coming from a god of some sort but its easy enough to rationalize. Midterm average is like 50 or smth now that my ECE108 mark is back and is actually pretty good, just have to study for finals.
Aug 5 - Engiqueers is over (party emoji) I will now no longer be doing anything student government related for the foreseeable future (; It was a bit much for 1b to have that too but now I actually have time to do things and not be incredibly stressed so thats nice.
Aug 11 - Two exams down, both mid as hell, the first one was probably a 70 and the second maybe ~52 but we ball. I understand it now atlease (Complex power makes sense finally yay)
Aug 18 - We live in a time of some truly insane amount of uncertainty and progress in one direction or another. Like its quite wild to me that some people aren't very concerned with the paths we're walking on. I'm worried that nothing I do right now will even matter come the future and its hard to not be paralyzed by that fear. Lmk if you have any fun coping mechanisms, its probably just bad now cause I'm at the tail end of the exam gauntlet.
Aug 20 - Quick check in on my flight back to Halifax, I got my ECE140 grade back and its a 74 or smth so we're proabably all around chilling on academics for now despite the cram. I'm achieving my goals academically and in terms of projects I want to work on, I could have a reasonably good sex life, its not something I care much for so I've lowkey turned it down but its nice to feel physically wanted. I midkey have no close friends after goat moved back to michigan but its fine for now, I'll probably try to find people/be open to people in the coming terms lol. Personally, life is reasonably good rn and we live in interesting times. I look forward to see what comes in the future.
Thanks for reading
- Tony